Saturday 19 May, 2007

This is me

At this point in time and with my blindness about me of course!

Here at this delicious, delicate and definite turning point stands a man
A man who has allowed himself to be broken by the gentle hands of the Universe
Not once but for real, many times
and yet only one time

A man who remains an only child of his biological parents
A man who lived life exactly as it occurred sensible to him
A man who now has grown up to have the sense to listen to the deeper calling
A man who intends to serve this deepest calling
“To be a friend in the eternal journey of being and becoming”

A man, a person, a being, a becoming!

As Krishanji said, “You are the World”
As the “Flame of awareness” burns brighter and deeper
The warts of the ego drives and the samskars of centuries burn to a crisp
Sometimes willingly and gladly
Many times (foolishly may be) with a great deal of anguish

What a blessing the last 45 years have been
Through all the twists and turns and ups and downs
Through the thick and the thin, through all the storms
– real ones and the teacup ones!

Being buffeted between a value system here and a philosophy there
A wanderer and many times a wonderer
but most of the time a worried warrior
How many false battles and how many lost causes

But always, great friends and phenomenal coaches and guides –
GURUS in the full sense of the word..
so many have helped in lifting the veil of inner darkness
and yet one always was alone!
And yet many more darknesses remained to be faced
But now with the light of life in the eyes
And the song of “Unconditional love” in the heart

Soul, Atman, call it what you will
But that inner light
The universal personal guide
Beckons and directs.. sometimes gently sometimes strongly
But forever forward in the journey of awakening

The east and the west
The Hindu and the Christian
And all the other shades in between
The north and the south
The wealthy and the needy
And all the other shades in between
The Happy and the harried
And all the other shades in between
The wise and the otherwise
And all the others in between
All are me and I am the whole spectrum

From a worm to a butterfly through the gooey mess inside the cocoon
From the tadpole to the frog to the beautiful prince
From the becoming to the being!
What journey this has been
The journey of awakening and sleeping and waking up again!

And this is where I am
In the eye of the thunderstorm
A servant of the force that sustains us all
A midwife, a child, a mother, a father
A wondering traveler
A grateful living being!

A devotee of the Lord’s lotus feet!!

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